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[Mini-Mad-Craig]

Even me . Well im young, I dont have much to worry about, well a few things are on my mind but wel'll let jeremy Kyle Sort that out.

[mini93]

stuff still gets you down thought right? everyone should know u cant just click ur fingers

[landy andy]

There was a girl that i was getting to no and she was really messing with my head and she really was getting me down

Then i started to hang around with my cousin again and he said we are going to a PART..TAYYY i was like ok
And there were two lessbians there and they were really cool to me and they seam to off made me smile again and said forget about the girl so i did

Wait a min...I want to try to be supportive to all involved but I feel that I may need much more info on the Lesbians first.

Pictures will do...just letting ya know.


Seriously..I'm sorry that some of you are going through this rough patch in your lives. I hope that things work out. There is nothing wrong with seeking counciling.I did it when my Partner passed away a few years ago and was a big help. Sometimes it takes alot of nerve to overcome the stigma of going to see one but once the first visit is over you'll wonder what the hell you waited for. Good luck.

Edited by landy andy, 29 August 2008 - 06:32 PM.

[Mini-Mad-Craig]

I split with my 1st serious GF at 16 and discovered beer.. by 17 i was 17 stone, 18 = 18 stone 19.. you get it. at 19 i sold my MPI Cooper Sport and went travelling to south east asia.. blew the lot. returned with dengue fever and got stuck in hospital for 2 weeks. Went back to work at Rover on production line and met a personal trainer who gave me lots of weight loss advice, i quit drinking and lost 7 stone in six months at which point i joined the fire service (June 2000)


I met Kate in June 2001, got engaged in September, Preganant in October moved in together, bought a flat in may 2002.. ella born in July 2002. Kate had severe post natal deppression but refused to see/tell docs.
Moved to bigger house in October 2002 and found out George was on the way, George born June 2003, again kate had depression... i left BMW in 2003 and started plumbing.

April 2005 we got planning permission to build a house on the side of our own house, we started building it kate got preganant again.. holly born April 06 sold our house and moved in to built one and bough an even bigger house up the road... Mum and dad split up, couldn't sell the house we built as the builder wasn't NHBC registered so we couldn't get certificate. My biggest customer went bankrupt owing me £25,000.... mu dad bought the house for £40,000 less than it was worth and gave it to my mum in settlement.

June 06 broke my toe and had to have 6 weeks off with infection

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in early 2007 following a prostate infection.

I was signed off from work (i was unable to concentrate) and prescribed fluoxitine (prozac) to immediatley increase my brains happy hormones but this increased the anxiety to the point that i couldn't leave the house.. so i was put on diazepam to counteract the anxiety for a few weeks at which point a Mate of mine was killed in Iraq leaving 2 young twins and a widdow in her mid 20's.... kind of put my life in perspective. I came off the prozac in May 2007 and was signed back on for the fire service in early july... and then had 2 weeks of no sleep during the flooding where i was constantly out on calls and missed lots of my plumbing work....

due to all of the debts i had ammased, i had to take a second mortgage out in November 2007 and was ok until about 2 months ago when my 2 year fixed deal on my first mortgage came to an end and increased payments by £400 per month i also had credit cards and overdraughts from being off sick and feeding 4 kids. I was signed off again in July with an Acute Stress Reaction and have just returned back to the fire service but plan to leave at the end of the year.

Councilling is great for making sense of why you are depressed but if it's down to money and the trouble is still there after the councilling then there's little point.

I haven't been to sleep yet and i'm on site in an hour

Still havingh major money trouble and lots of work cancelled due to credit crunch... i can earn up to £1000 a day on a good day though and I have just been signed as a solo artist by a music agent and he want's my band too....

I think i have stress now rather than depression but i keep in close contact with my own GP and the Fire Service Doctor/ occupational health team as Acute Stress Reactions can lead to PTSD.

ConGrats!!! What do you play? I Play guitar for an Indie band in kent, fun fun fun.

Sorry off topic.

[wolfys_mini]

You only live once. enjoy life while you can.

its not that easy craig.

Wolfy, been dying to post this!!

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juju, i understand what you were saying no offense was taken

[Shifty]

Thats the same reason that I am now longer allowed to be a"Samaritan"

[wolfys_mini]

doesnt suprise me dear man

[Shifty]

That clip still makes me laff!!!

[Linzi]

Dan, as you know I suffered from depression, still have the odd bad days but who doesn't. Like you i refuse/d point blank to take any form of tablets as they are what caused half my problems, them and illness. To deal with it I made myself single for a start and threw myself into my local Mini Club, set up my own meets, met loads of great people and put all my effort into work, i absolutely love my job, no matter how banana i can feel in a morning one of the little un's can always make me smile within minutes of walking into work. I then had my illness to deal with, dealing with the unknown scared me, but as soon as i knew what was wrong and was on the right medication and was armed with the information i needed i found it easier to cope and along with everything else i got less and less depressed,.. now i'm generally fine, the depression only sneaks back if I get ill and have to have time off work,.. work and mini clubs and friends have been my life line,... never really moaned to any of my friends though didnt want them to treat me differently it was just enough to be able to get out the house and do something.

Guess what i'm trying to say is that you will find someway to cope,. whether that be tablets, talking to friends keeping yourself busy or speaking to a psychologist or similar, people even find talking to random strangers on the net helpful,.. so whatever goes

[AndrewJ530]

I can sympathise with everyone on here who has suffered from some sort of depression, i really do, but never having it myself i cannnot really understand. What i would like to say though is that everyone who has posted their problems i would congratulate you on putting forward this problem because that is the first step to getting over depression or anything for that matter.
I think this post is very beneficial for people with depression who haven't told anyone about it, because although it looks like to them that there is no light at the end of the tunnel, they know that other people have looked hard enough and seen that light, and that now they can do the same.

[biggav]

I should probably mention that i took recreational drugs in my late teens which were responsible for some of the best nights of my life!!! AND THE SINGLE WORST ONE WHICH I WHY I NEVER TOOK ANY AGAIN

Im pretty sure that has contributed towards my mental problems.. it's almost as if it openend up an area of my brain which increses the happy feelings beyond normal levels but also pushes the depression boundary's lower meaning that the swings are more violent...

may not make sense to anyone else but i understand what i mean. My brother is also in the building trade, worked as a retained firefighter and is under huge stress but has never taken drugs and "seems" to handle stress like water off a duck.. though he's no where near as open as i am about things.

note for Juju.. Completley understand what you are saying, no offence taken or even hinted at. I just feel a bit of an "Elder" on here sometimes when people descrie things i have been to and i thought it best to detail my "life story" in order to show how things progressed. but if i was seeking attention i wouldn't do it here no offence!!

[wolfys_mini]

its strange, havent had time too ring anyone yet, been a bit busy with waking up and going too work. had a very bad night last night (tuesday) but something clicked in my head. didnt make me feel any better, never does. but it made me stop and think. in a good way.

over analysis...its the way forward dont you know

[photographymatt]

Um, I never usually like to be open about my experience(think Iv only replyed in short about it to one other post on here) but hey ho, its 4am:-)

Before I forget, craig....positive experiences in life doesnt mean you cant have depression, thats mental illness for you. Iv had some amazing times in the past and gone home and cried. Iv had really bad things happen and Iv been fine.

I was fine till I came back from saudi arabia(the first gulf war) and started high school. This and a combination of my folks breaking up in quite a messy divorce added to what I belive was already there. fast forward to end of school, while had minorly self harmed in the past during the school, this side of things didnt start majorly till college. I could post a 100 page reply about this but your just getting the footnotes today people:-)

self harm, oh what a double edged sword(no pun intended) While at my lowest points, where suicide was considered, this aspect of myself calmed me down. but on the flip side the physical harm I found to myself when I came into full conciousness made me worse.

even to this day, I never wear short sleeve tshirts so the "attention seeking" comments are defunct. Iv met silly lil mini-goths who wear their hearts on their sleeves and use self harm as a badge of honour and it makes me feel so sad that they feel they have to do that to fit in:-( at the same time...annoys me, there(mostly anyways) lil cat stratchs might bring it to the attention of someone who will cause more harm to themselfs. Im getting more ink on my left arm to regain control of my body from my past

back on track, during college I started drinking alot and not eating. I got to the point where I relised my drinking was a problem. I drank when depressed, and when I drank I got more depressed(my worse self injury scars are from when very drunk) I stopped drinking...that was one of the hardest things I'v done but im 5 years sobor now. Before I went to uni(first time) I weighed just shy of 9 stone, going to about 8.5 stone during the few months I managed uni. A combination of it being the completly wrong course for me at the time and my depression hitting a new low, I left.

During this point I fully belived I wouldnt make 20. The sad thing is...I accepted this and carried on getting worse.

I then spent a really low 7 months after xmas(when I left uni/stoke) basically sleeping and crying and not even caring about music(you know its bad when you dont care about music) before finally getting a job in a camera shop. Now I had the means to buy new gear(with anything, new items can renew your interest) and I started taking photos again. Carried on self harming when at lowest and still felt suicidal often. Carried on with the shrink meetings I started in stoke(different doc) and while this did nothing I really liked the chance to just chat about how I felt with someone who wouldnt judge. by the way, some of the closest friends dont know the above, feel honoured;-)

Iv been on many pills the docs prescribed and at best they made me monged out all the time, at worst...well effexor and me didnt work out, so when I came off them well Iv read that they are worse than coming off herion to which I thought was rubbish. now Iv never done hard drugs before but christ....randomly my brain would feel like it was vibrating and I had to run to the bathroom to throw up all the time. Those cute lil pills were not giving up without a fight... so two weeks of pure hell AND carrying on at work. oh on the note of pills...since starting pills I bounced in my weight up and down, now down to 13 stone but dont feel as fat now, lost so much weight. think its mostly down to not eating much but I feel better in my body, clothes that didnt fit now do and Iv brought some gorgous clothes this week after getting paid:-)

on that note...docs sign people off without a moments thought, and I fully belive sitting at home, on sick pay or dole for long term(a short holiday from life can be essential thou) is the worst thing someone can do. Even if you are volentiering....force yourself to get out and have a plan.

so yeah, after working for about 4 years in that lil shop I relised I wanted a change so have gone back to uni last year. It was a *rubbish* year that started with one of my best friends dieing in a car crash, and the house I lived in wasnt good..moron landlord, tight with money/high with giving stress syrian phd student and other things that just didnt go well. I still have really bad days/weeks but I plan to make this year a great one.

Oh by the way, its been close to a year and a half of not hurting myself, go me. Not saying I wont do it again or if low wont consider suicide, but even thou life isnt 100% at the mo..Im trying.hard.and thats all you can do really.

I love the below quote.

"Im told everyone has depression in a different way but for me I can only describe it as being down a wishing well, it has a ladder to climb in and out.... sometimes you are near the water and you are afraid you will drown and other times you are higher up and can feel sunlight on your face, one day I hope to climb out and be really free."

ps
got my love for music back, ten fold now.listening to sisters of mercy and afi songs on youtube right now:-) whoa, its 5am...writting this for a hour.sorry people:-( and sorry if it makes no sense.

pps
wolfy, you know where I am if you need a chat, feel free to add me on msn. go to your docs defo. stupid waiting lists(once was told 3 months for help and that was after telling the doc I was massivly suicidal.lol) but theres help you can get in the meantime from both your doc and places like MIND.

[ZED]

"Im told everyone has depression in a different way but for me I can only describe it as being down a wishing well, it has a ladder to climb in and out.... sometimes you are near the water and you are afraid you will drown and other times you are higher up and can feel sunlight on your face, one day I hope to climb out and be really free."

I like this quote, I have been in this particular well for ages now!

Well done everyone that had shared, The first step is always to see the problem,after that you can heal.

Z

[*Raz*]

Everyone gets down and depressed now and again and people deal with it in different ways.

Ive been depressed a few years back when I found out my Granny and Grandpa were killed in a car accident when they were on holiday. I was depressed but the most horrible thing was seeing my dad go through what he did, as they were his parents. He had to break the news to me, my sister, and probably hardest of all, my brother who was living miles away at the time. My dad wouldnt eat, couldnt eat, was quiet, lost so much weight. It really really hurt me seeing him cry. I dont think I ever had seen him cry before. To see my big strong lovely caring father break down so often but still try and be strong for us all killed me.

My mum's mum has had dementia for years, and now and for the last few years, she has not known who any of us are. She cant feed herself, cant talk, cant walk etc and is now in a care home. My grandad and mum exhausted themselves caring for her 24/7 along with anything else. My mum is a strong woman, but bottles things up, and then every now and again breaks down because she is grieving for someone who is still alive and says how she doesnt know her mum any more and just wants her back.

Its good to have a cry though. I bottle things up then tend to explode. Things play on my mind for a long time then it all comes out on someone, and so help them!! Sometimes its nice to be alone and cry or just let it out on someone.

But then I look at my life and think how lucky I am, I might have had bad times in my life, but so does everyone but you have to put it in perspective! I am very lucky to have the people in my life that I do have, im lucky to be healthy, Im lucky to have the things I have, the people that I love etc, and I KNOW there are millions of people far worse off than me. So then I try to get on with my life with that in mind!!